Dear John,

John, I have never been so in love for so long. Four years. Wow. I guess that's a pretty long time, huh? I have loved being with you all the time, talking to you all the time, and being in love with you all the time. You have never cheated on me (contrary to what I have done to you, which I did twice). Gaad. You were so mad at me. I thought our relationship wouldn't be fixed, but still, you accepted me. You still loved me. You swallowed your pride, the one thing you claim to be what you only have. I really appreciated that and loved you even more.

I always thought you would run away when you got me pregnant. You didn't. Gaad. I love you. You are one of those few guys, who girls would be so lucky to have. I am in awe of your overall goodness. I never thought I would come across a man like you. You are so responsible that you 'tried' to take care of 'our family' and 'took good care' of your father's family. You are a good friend to all your friends. You are always there whenever they need you, even if I may need you too.

You see, I have never stopped loving you, but. We need to go our separate ways now. I have waited so long for everything to change, for everything to be okay. I wanted my parents to accept you. I wanted you to move away from your house so you wouldn't be responsible for them anymore, so you could earn, for us. I wanted you to wake up earlier so you could greet me 'good morning.' I wanted you to stop thinking so negative of me. I wanted to stop thinking about me as a snobbish, immature, misdirected, and unfaithful bitch that you always thought I was. How hero of you to love someone of that denomination? I am impressed.

But sadly, honey, we cannot go on like this.

I would love to spend the rest of my life sittin' beside you, sippin' tequila. However, our lives are not crossed in the future. We are both the eldest in the family, and same as your responsibility, I have responsibility for my siblings too (thank you for showing me that with the way you set aside our family). I also think that I do not have the right to change you. I mean, who am I to do that? I am just a girl you loved. Love changes us, but really, I can't change you. Honey, I have changed the way I am since the day I first met you, but I have no right to oblige you to do the same.

Please don't get mad at me. Let's be friends, for the little kiddo in front of the television dancing to Doc Mcstuffins. I want her to have a bright future. I don't want here to feel she has a broken family. I wish you all the best after everything. You have your whole life ahead of you. Tatah ;)